Faking Smiles

So I've been feeling pretty good lately. I haven't has any real heartache about the whole situation with the boy. Up until the past few days I have been okay. I have just started missing him. I even took a nap today and I had a dream about him where he was explaining why we couldn't be together, but right before he finished explaining it cut out. I also dreamt that he was at my house with one of my roomies and he wouldn't let me give him a ride home. I think I just gave him a big hug and then I woke up. I have no idea what that meant, but it is making my day worse than it ought to be. My heart it kind of hurting. Maybe I'm just mourning the whole thing. Maybe I'm just PMSing. This is my place to write how I really feel though, so I don't care if I write about the same thing 800 times. This is how I feel today and these are honestly my feelings. I also feel like if I'm patient, he will contact me. I really feel that, but I'm not sure I can be patient. I think the powers that be really want me to learn how to be patient, because things keep happening where I need to be patient. Perhaps this time I will learn my lesson.